I try to run as far away as I possibly can
From all the whiplashes of truth
But my lungs will never take me far enough to miss the tip of the whip
It always hurts the most
I cry tears of blood to stain my skin with the reality that this is who I am
Streams of blood cells that give me life
Running down my arms like runners of a marathon
I wish I had their adrenaline
I wish I had a shot of life for every moment I think of not having enough time to live
I wish I could kiss without thinking this is my last time kissing you
I wish I could hold you forever and never worry about how much time will go by before I get to feel them again
Inhale
Exhale
I need your air
Fresh, exuberant, I want you
I hate to need, but I always love to want you
A hidden secret, the forbidden fruit of my garden
I always bite
Enjoying my eternal burden of this forever sin
Let the juices of your goodness trail down the sides of my mouth
Savoring every last drop, I feed off of you
A living parasite but you never try to kill me off
I cannot lie to myself
I need you as you want me
The difference is too big for me to handle
I’ve never been so close to someone and yet feel so far away
Pores intertwining with pores
And still the emotional line is cut off
Heart to heart, impossible
Skin to skin, inevitable
I need to get away from you
I need to run
I need to move
But I can’t.
My legs will never take me far
My lungs won’t allow it
They need you as much as I do
What’s life without you?
Life with no air
Flat-line. The machine beeps too loud
I hear your voice even as I float into nirvana.
Happiness, finally.
